This song by the David Crowder Band - I AM, has been stuck in my head every day...holding on to God in the middle of the storm that I am in. I've been through many storms in my life..for those of you who know me well...many storms...and God always saw me through them...but this storm is quite different...and I am hanging onto God's promises, God's hope, God's love and God's future for me, for Brandi, for you all.
Every day, there is a reminder of how much I loved this woman...my wife, my friend and every time that moment hits me, I am saddened by her not being here, but also very joyful in knowing that I was blessed to have been with her for so long. This song and many others have been a huge reminder of the God that I love and worship and adore..He loves me so much and that in my grieving and pain, He reminds me of this all powerful love that He has for me.
You see, my hope has to be in God and what He has planned and has in store for me moving forward. My hope was not in Lori or the time she had here..my hope is not in Brandi and what her future holds...God has that in His hand...what I need to rely on and depend on is God's hope and promise for me...that His love has reached me, He has peace for me, He has grace for me, He will never leave my side..I can rest in His promises and who I am to Him.
So whether it be two months, 12 months and or 10 years in Lori's passing...I am assured that I will see her again...but more importantly that when I see her I will be with the Father and that's a huge celebration for me....in the meantime, my focus is glorifying God in all that I do. Loving God and Loving people..and sharing God's love for those who do not yet know Him in my actions and words....to God be the glory.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=77SuukJEJ2Q
"I Am"
There's no space that His love can't reach
There's no place where we can't find peace
There's no end to Amazing Grace
Take me in with your arms spread wide
Take me in like an orphan child
Never let go, never leave my side
[Chorus:]
I am
Holding onto you
I am
Holding onto you
In the middle of the storm
I am holding on
I am!
[Verse 2:]
Love like this, Oh my God to find!
I am overwhelmed what a joy divine!
Love like this sets our hearts on fire!
[Chorus x2]
[Verse 3:]
This is my Resurrection song
This is my Hallelujah come
This is why it's to you I run
There's no space that His love can't reach
There's no place where we can't find peace
There's no end to Amazing Grace
[Chorus:]
I am
Holding on to you
I am
Holding on to you
In the middle of the storm
I am holding on
I am
Holding on to you
I am
Holding on to you
In the middle of the storm
I am holding on
I am
Holding on to you
I am
Holding on to you
In the middle of the storm
I am holding on
I am!
I am
In the middle of the storm
I am holding on
I am!
There's no place where we can't find peace
There's no end to Amazing Grace
Take me in with your arms spread wide
Take me in like an orphan child
Never let go, never leave my side
[Chorus:]
I am
Holding onto you
I am
Holding onto you
In the middle of the storm
I am holding on
I am!
[Verse 2:]
Love like this, Oh my God to find!
I am overwhelmed what a joy divine!
Love like this sets our hearts on fire!
[Chorus x2]
[Verse 3:]
This is my Resurrection song
This is my Hallelujah come
This is why it's to you I run
There's no space that His love can't reach
There's no place where we can't find peace
There's no end to Amazing Grace
[Chorus:]
I am
Holding on to you
I am
Holding on to you
In the middle of the storm
I am holding on
I am
Holding on to you
I am
Holding on to you
In the middle of the storm
I am holding on
I am
Holding on to you
I am
Holding on to you
In the middle of the storm
I am holding on
I am!
I am
In the middle of the storm
I am holding on
I am!
