Wassup ohana…it
has now been 79 days, a little more than 2.5 months..and it is still a bit
surreal at times..but knowing that it is real, still at times is hard to
comprehend.
Intellectually,
I am fully aware of the promise fulfilled by God to Lori, to me to Brandi…I
totally understand the process of death and the major awesome benefits that
goes with that to those who believe in Him…I get that, she is with Jesus..she
is home, she is in eternity with God.
But yet, my
heart still hurts…my soul longs for her..to hug her, to kiss her, to argue with
her…to just hold her hand. I am
confident in that I will see Lori again…I am confident in God’s plans for
me..His promises, His hope, His future for me, for Brandi…but yet it still
hurts. The grief is still there and I am
choosing not to rush the process, because I don’t want to become the person who
doesn’t rely on God for all things…shutting down my feelings, my emotions, my
tears, my cries…will not make me better…it will allow pride to seep in…I must
rely on the Father to heal my grief in His time…but in the meantime, I must
live the life that God has called me into…Love God and Love people!
Tommy
Walker, the awesome Christian worship leader, shared this song at the 2015
Foursquare District Conference tonight…before he sang it, he said, this is a
song for those who recently lost a loved one…boy..my emotions were flowing
during the song…lately my emotions have been very easy to come out…I’ve cried
more in the last 79 days than I think I’ve done in my entire life time…this
song had a special story behind it…below are the words…and here is the song via
video. Check it out and take comfort
that Lori has gone down this path already..it has been a path that Jesus laid
out for us with Him going first..and because of what He did, we have life with Him.
I continue
to worship God in all things…my times with Him, worshipping Him in song and in
His word, continues to comfort me in my loss and day by day…it’s getting better…but
I am not there yet and for all of us, as this song says..someday it will be all
over – here…but Someday it will have just begun – there -with God.
Lori
finished the race well…we are still running that race..with God leading the
way, with Jesus holding our hand and with the Holy Spirit in us.
Lord, have
your way in me…work out the grief in my heart…I desire to live in joy and in
unity with You…I trust in You and seek You in all things and I take great
comfort in knowing that Lori is with you.
Lord, help me to live out the calling and purpose You have for me…You
are not finished with me yet. To You be
the glory!
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Someday it will
all be over
Someday it will all be done
And we'll lay our heavy burdens down
When at His feet we bow
At last we will be home forever
Someday it will all be over
Someday it will all be over
Someday it will all be done
And at last the bitter taste of death
Forever will give way to tears of joy
And life eternal
Someday it will all be over
No more wars and no more hate
Only love and harmony
When we see our King on His mercy seat
All our pain and fears will finally cease
Someday it will all be over
Someday it will all have just begun
Someday it will all be done
And we'll lay our heavy burdens down
When at His feet we bow
At last we will be home forever
Someday it will all be over
Someday it will all be over
Someday it will all be done
And at last the bitter taste of death
Forever will give way to tears of joy
And life eternal
Someday it will all be over
No more wars and no more hate
Only love and harmony
When we see our King on His mercy seat
All our pain and fears will finally cease
Someday it will all be over
Someday it will all have just begun
